I want to give my last goodbye to you, but it’s already my heart saying I shouldn’t have to. The only reason I just want to give my last words, it’s because I want you to know that my heart is now ready to let you go and I know once I’ve already said what I wanted to let you know, I’ll be totally free from the images and thoughts of you in my mind. I know I have already said goodbye to you, but you know that I still didn’t totally let you go. There are no tears in my eyes anymore. There’s no pain anymore besides from a lump in my throat while typing this one.
And besides, I want you to know that I’m happy now. I also want to say that I’d already forgiven you, so if you think there are still hatred and pain inside of me — you’re wrong. The months you were not here, the days of your absence in my life, those are the times I’m learning to forgive, to let go, to stand and to be strong. So, after those times — I’ve changed a lot, I’ve turned into a someone you’ve already expected I could be, and that’s also the reason why I wanted to stand in front of you now, while saying my last words. I want you to know that — hey I can — where I told you before I can’t. Also, I want you to realize I am what I am now, because of you. But my heart stops me, and my heart itself told me you’re maybe much happier than me, and my words aren’t meant to be heard.